ready for christmas

christmas is coming! i am going enjoy it really hard this time round!
btw, christmas shopping is done. spend 100 bucks on clothes ... well, there will be more shopping when i fly off to HAIKOU in a week's time HEEHEEHEE

plan for tmr:
morning - art lesson
noon - cleaning the hse (nt that i will enjoy it, but i will like the end result)
afternoon - movie marathon
evening - pizza time and party!


enjoy ur christmas too!

milestone

within a month's time, i have completed at least 7 full phy papers, 8
full chem papers, 4 gsc papers, 7 full maths papers, gp alot(because
of tuition). i know it sounds crazy but i have a goal in mind, so i worked hard.

i think it's a bit late to blog about A 'lvl (and im also quite reluctant to do so) but i want to write this period of difficulties down in words, so to rmb --- that if i strive--- i can overcome any obstacles even when it seems impossible.

over these few months, i felt like i have fallen into hell, hectic life made me breathless. everyday, i have to complete a certain sets of papers and questions. everyday, i was counting down to the days of A's.

finally, when a lvl arrived, i felt slightly uncertain and scared. there are so many what if(s) that i have no answer to it. when i was sitting for chemistry P3, i felt that i was crashed by the first wave, harsh and painful. am i that lousy? will all my efforts go into the drain? can i do well for chemistry? panicking! suffocating

GP (never felt confident, it seems like my logic and common sense are all bullshit) until i find a GP tutor, i felt slightly better and more confident. the night before GP paper, i was uncertain and afraid. what if all the topics come out is not what i have studied, what should i do?! and he told me,' when life gives you lemon, make lemonade'. true enough, we cant control our fate, but we can try our best and leave no regrets. this is the best part of life isn't it? to work hard for ur own goal and live our lives to the fullest. the next day, none of the topics i chosed came out, but gladly, i was not affected and chosed food hunger question in the end. i wrote 6 pages, the longest essay in 2 years.

about the rest, i was kind of getting used to the exams and they didnt really leave a deep impression on me. so i wish myself all the best in getting good result.

i aim high, i try hard.

瞬间的领悟

在羡慕别人之前，先看看自己还有哪些不足。
加油。别人跟我比今天，我跟别人比明天！

问号

人是矛盾的，我是矛盾的。

当我在不停的鼓励自己时，我会不知觉的认为自己是失败的。

我时常希望我能再多努力一点，但往往在自己疲惫不堪时轻易放弃。

我经常认为向人求助很容易，但真正遇到困难时却不知所措。

我希望独立，但总是发觉自己很幼稚。

我应该是个乐观主义者，但时常也有很悲观的想法。

或许我带着一个笑脸面具，摘不下，看不见里面的那个我，还天真地认为那个假面具就是我。

我不明白自己，更不图别人能理解我。

天灰灰

life sucks school sucks, great depression

at this point in time, some one please HELP ME. yes, im so desperated in needing help. my grade sucks and i don believe in miracle . i have to improve my grade OR else my whole life is ARHHHH

此时此刻，偶，雨吉心情非常的沮丧。一肚子的怨气憋得好难受。我的成绩怎么还是原地踏步呢。。郁闷。。

chat (random)

the reason why i don like to stay 'online' in msn is because i will always receive email requests and out of these seemingly normal emails, many of them are what i refer them as 'messenger porn-er'. these ppl will start a chat in a very friendly and flirty way.

8/july/2010 11.20pm
because exam has just finished, so i decided to sign in to msn (after many many weeks). the first chat box is from this stranger, called tracy.
she does her self intro and tells me where she lives, also requesting for cam chat.

she: hello!
i say: hi, u're?
she: im tracy. 21f/Cali. u don mind chatting?
i say: i don mind, but im busy now.(was a bit curious abt wat she will say so i intend to stay abit longer. other times, i will just delete the email)
she: where did u live?
i: eropagnis (it is singapore)
she: oh, let's have cam chat. i love flirting with mine ;)
i: im busy, maybe another time
she: u want to have cam chat. u want to see me. i don really do cam chatting in this account as people have recorded me last time
i: im busy if u don leave me alone, i will have to block u (was wondering if i keep repeating this, will she lose interest..)
she: ok. please go to XXXXX.com if u cant see me that means it's a private video but im always available to make ur video.

....i din reply. after 5mins, she send the website address again.. lol

ok. delete email.

cherries, loads loads of cherries

love my dad, he knows that i like cherries, so he bought 10kg(with an offer price) but still, i was pretty surprise:) just imagine i get to eat 15 cherries a day!
btw, for ppl who has never tasted a cherry(fresh not CANNED), must try.
LOOK at them, they are so fresh~~

AND, i really need to start worikng right after A's, saved up and buy a DSLR(digital single reflex lens), it's such a babe~
i need it to take nice, good quality artistic photos! yoy know it's kind of frastruting when there are soo many ideas in ur mind and because of the absence of a good camera, u cant do anything.

the 'BEST' ever...

=.=

this is soo LAME

我看了要喷血~~

生日歌

隔壁哪个小孩过生日，一家大小在为她庆生。好熟悉的音乐，让我好怀念。我还记得那时的我，小不点一个，喜欢热闹，被许多人爱的感觉，所以总有一大伙人为我唱生日歌。那时，一家人住在一个大院子里，总能找到玩伴，一起跳绳，踢毽子，捕蝴蝶，捉蚱蜢，跳房子，乘凉。记得那时养了小狗，几只小猫和小鸭，还有一个小菜园和小池塘。对了，还有一个小黑板和一大盒彩色粉笔。


很多人说我的到来是个宝，大家为我拍了许多成长照片，一直都被珍藏着。


但许多记忆都还留在中国，好想回家看看。

HARRY POTTER

NOVEMBER 2010! well, i will catch it around december, but still happy :D

time is running out..

just returned from GP tuition. well,today's topic is about nuclear weapons and related topics. i was really not interested that i found myself in a dazz for a few times. arh, i felt bad abt it, i shld be listening!(for so many reasons, i pay the fee, my result sucks to the core, my mom will be disappointed and some how i feel that it's morally wrong)

GP will be an interesting topic to know about but not for a subject, it's scary to know that im still far away from feeling ready for A's.
i really want to speak up during lesson today but no relevant point or even a simple educated guess come out in my head, arh! it's so frastrating!


ARHH, i want to feel smart during GP lesson :(

friend, i found u

♥

气!

看了《叶问1》。 他妈的！日本鬼子不得好死。8年战争永远是恨！我现在真得很想骂人。。

wow

i saw this design on the way home, but the snake was tangling around a taxi

Cannes Film Festival

best dress HOHOHO!

one of the hardest job ever

All women become like their mother. that is their tragedy. no man does. that's his. - Oscar Wilde

be a mother is a gift given by god, she plays a significant role in the life of her child, but it's also a not easy and tiring life long job when we talk abt nurturing the child from a baby to an adult and goes on if she wants/needs (i think that always happen).

mother can be loving, protective influencial and supportive, she can also be strict, naggy, picky and scary sometime, but these are her charm. it's nice to know that the child always knows from deep inside her heart that mummy loves them the most.

many know that in the eyes of a mother, their child is always the most beautiful baby. and i have to add on, in the eyes of a child, her mother is her idol, she is the sweetest and the greatest always. .

Whatever else is unsure in this stinking dunhill of a world a mother's love is not. - James Joyce in A Protrait of the artist as a Young Man

no matter how busy i am today, i must post something just for her.

i love my mummy!

happy mothers' day!

p.s she likes the bouquet i gave her, she is surprised :)

rugby epic

the ball: im here!!

squashed

oops

OOPS

the winning piece . . .

the friend: EHEMM!

my belief since young

:D

at this moment, i have not much thing to say, because i was exhausted. but, im happy and contented. life is slightly better now, cca has ended at 9.25pm. the performance is really smooth and good (best performance compare to the rehearsals and zillion intensive practices)

i ♥ juniors/friends
i ♥ life
i ♥ parents (because they are going to celebrate my birthday again, a make-up one as my birthday sadly fell on the PW results releasing day the previous time. .)
i ♥ myself (i have pulled thru this period of many difficulties)

now, may the god gives me the strength to face other challenges and stay strong in ur precious hands.. i say Amen

despicable me ;)

planning to watch it. im so crazy over 3d technology!

餐桌语

吃饭时，谈到中国有上万人拥有亿万资产。我问到那高层中央领导们应该能荣登富翁奖吧。
妈“那你打个电话个胡锦涛师傅问问”
我“如果我有他的电话，一定天天打”
妈“等会儿他骂你没事找事干，不去读书”
我“不会的，我就说叫他传授一些人生经验给我”
妈“例如怎样当上主席”
我“哈 他一定说该出头时就出头哇” （原歌词是该出手时就出手哇自水浒传 好汉歌）
妈“什么？该梳头时就梳头？我还该洗澡时就洗澡哇”
我“哈 你听错了。 是出头，不是梳头”
妈“继续。 该出头时就出头哇，轰轰烈烈创中国哇”

only physics

series of imaginations

i was eating papaya when i stared out into the sky thru the window. it was really dark, despite the colourful lightings of housings from far. at this hour, the sky looks like ocean, deep underwater. i wonder if i saw a jellyfish like cloud flouting pass the flat. i wonder if there is any jellyfish shape hot air balloon, that would be cute :D ah, i feel like drawing now, but i couldnt, i have to study. it would be an interesting piece if only ... tick tock, no time!
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edit: (after abt half an hr) this is how i started serving google. . .

he broke up?

photography

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these two make me look like some spiritual thing, from the tree or smth(esp the red one..)

sleepy talk

i went to national skin centre today. when i was done with my treatment, i proceed to the counter for payment. when the lady ask,'girl, you want to pay by credit cards or cash?' the obvious answer to me is cash, so i reply,'crash . . .eh cash i mean!' embarrased. i was dazed...

very the kawaii and laughable and unexpected . .

i like it, the idea and all