cny update, goodies update!

gosh, the piano version!

i love SHINee! i love ppl who can use piano to play out the whole song! when i listen to these, it feels like SHINee is singing.




♥

今天天气晴转阴转雷阵雨

我从小就被人爱护，因为我是独生女。虽然快21，但从来没有当大人的感觉。
但今天不同，我收到有史以来的第一份工资，不多但我很满足。第一份工资，靠自己赚来的，不容易但我很高兴。终于有了一点点能自立的感觉。接着，我在下午的面试，成功录取，双喜临门，感觉飘飘然。傍晚，是我自放假一来，最愉快一天，是精神上的充实。就这样，我跟wy,hw,ll 又是买东西，吃东西，拍照（lomo）。一转眼，10点多，该回家了。在路上，我一边看着相片，一边想着爸妈公婆在干啥，竟然没来电。心里想着也许他们也认为我大了，跟着也就更放心了。想着也就没拨电回家，不想让爸来接我（每次打电话，爸都回来接，这回不想麻烦）。回到家，全家神情不对，老爷问我怎么这么晚才回来，妈爸生气问我为什么关机，不回电，把家给忘了！！？我茫然，我没关机（最后发现手机死机）。随后，妈生气的话中带着一丝担忧问我为什么一点都不想家，玩风了，要报警察局了。妈越说越气，我这时才顿然明白自己糊涂！自己被第一份工资冲昏了头，高兴，自以为是，忘了打电话回家。心里十分惭愧，嘴里却一直念着我忘了。我哭了，我无法说出个所以然，我慌，我悔，我羞。我那一点点自立，成就感完全消失，失败和幼稚成了当时的我心中对自己的代名词。没错，即使我已经长大，但我依然是父母长辈的孩子，依然需要被担心，依然需要被保护。但我没有权利也不应该让他们伤心，提心吊胆。
我道歉，我对不起。

candice's birthday present

sweet

when my mom and i were watching a really old show called "情深深雨蒙蒙" . in this drama, there is this guy called Shuhuan, he loves this girl called Yiping. he is always protective, loving, supportive towards her when she faces troubles. so i said,'why this kind of guy don exist in real world??'

then mommy said,"i think ur dad is the Shuhuan." smile.

ready for christmas

christmas is coming! i am going enjoy it really hard this time round!
btw, christmas shopping is done. spend 100 bucks on clothes ... well, there will be more shopping when i fly off to HAIKOU in a week's time HEEHEEHEE

plan for tmr:
morning - art lesson
noon - cleaning the hse (nt that i will enjoy it, but i will like the end result)
afternoon - movie marathon
evening - pizza time and party!


enjoy ur christmas too!

milestone

within a month's time, i have completed at least 7 full phy papers, 8
full chem papers, 4 gsc papers, 7 full maths papers, gp alot(because
of tuition). i know it sounds crazy but i have a goal in mind, so i worked hard.

i think it's a bit late to blog about A 'lvl (and im also quite reluctant to do so) but i want to write this period of difficulties down in words, so to rmb --- that if i strive--- i can overcome any obstacles even when it seems impossible.

over these few months, i felt like i have fallen into hell, hectic life made me breathless. everyday, i have to complete a certain sets of papers and questions. everyday, i was counting down to the days of A's.

finally, when a lvl arrived, i felt slightly uncertain and scared. there are so many what if(s) that i have no answer to it. when i was sitting for chemistry P3, i felt that i was crashed by the first wave, harsh and painful. am i that lousy? will all my efforts go into the drain? can i do well for chemistry? panicking! suffocating

GP (never felt confident, it seems like my logic and common sense are all bullshit) until i find a GP tutor, i felt slightly better and more confident. the night before GP paper, i was uncertain and afraid. what if all the topics come out is not what i have studied, what should i do?! and he told me,' when life gives you lemon, make lemonade'. true enough, we cant control our fate, but we can try our best and leave no regrets. this is the best part of life isn't it? to work hard for ur own goal and live our lives to the fullest. the next day, none of the topics i chosed came out, but gladly, i was not affected and chosed food hunger question in the end. i wrote 6 pages, the longest essay in 2 years.

about the rest, i was kind of getting used to the exams and they didnt really leave a deep impression on me. so i wish myself all the best in getting good result.

i aim high, i try hard.